This won’t be long, because I know
I’m not going to say anything that hasn’t been said already. But here it is
anyway: There is no God. There is no great source of goodness, and there is no
great source of evil either.
Wait, let me explain why that isn’t
cynical.
I just saw The Dark Knight Rises. That seems like a non-sequitur, but bear
with me. We need to phase back to 2005. In 2005, Batman Begins came out. I
was also 14, which was a big year for me, even if I didn’t know it at the time.
Fourteen was the year I met everyone that was going to make serious waves in that
era of my life. The person I am now? Yeah, she started forming at 14. There was
the ass who broke my heart first, whose lasting contribution was the hard
lesson “don’t play with kids who are mean to you.” There was the girl who was
my best friend through most of high school, and she is responsible for the
foundation of what people now call my “hipster-ness.” More importantly, she
taught me that if it makes me happy, it’s alright to be weird. It’s okay to
like anime, and sing songs about pirates in the school talent show. It’s okay
to wear mismatched shoes and listen to music that doesn’t play on the radio, so
long as you do it so passionately the
criticism of others can’t possibly reach you inside your euphoric bubble of
bizarre. There was the boy who would eventually become the man that most
recently re-broke my heart. And while it’s easiest to talk about him like he
never existed, even now I have to admit that if you broke me down into individual
parts, his fingerprints would be on every nut and bolt. While I only met him at
14, we bonded over Batman.
The important thing here is not the
Batman movies – which I have seen – nor the Batman graphic novels – which I
have devoured – nor the massive universe of games, books, art, characters, or
other various pieces that make Batman so further reaching than your average,
non-comic reading, non-Xbox playing, non-wholly committed fan will be aware of.
The important thing is what Batman stands for, for me.
See, 14 was another big year for me
because it was the year I started wearing bikinis. And swearing. And watching R
rated movies. And that’s a big deal because they were the first small steps in
rejecting my father’s faith. And while I don’t think there is a giant, white,
bearded clock maker out there watching us lead our little lives, I have to
believe in something. We can live without religion just fine. We can’t live
without faith, and faith cannot live without community. I think, at its purest,
that is what religion is really about, and I have no opposition to that. So as
my faith in a nice boy with a beard and a hammer, who was not white, had no
published stance on homosexuality, and was probably misdiagnosing things like
epilepsy as demon possession (I’ll give you a pass on that one, dude) started
to fade, I had to replace it with something. The replacement wasn’t voluntary,
but as my unwavering faith in redemption so long as I ate some bread and prayed
twice a day began to waver, my new faith in people started shoring itself up.
I wasn’t the first person to say
it, and I don’t think Nietzsche was either, but he put it better than 14 year
old me could have. To paraphrase, Nietzsche said there is no such thing as
truth. Truth is a social construct, or put another way, truth is something we
all agree on so hard that no one can disagree. I like this, for a couple
reasons. First, it allows for shades of grey I never felt my religion allowed
for. Okay, we all agree rape is bad… but what about marital rape? What if she
gets pregnant? Can she have an abortion? What if it was her husband who raped
her? Shades of grey. And those shades of grey are really the only way we’ll
ever be able to answer those hard questions. When I pushed the issue at church,
the answer I got was, “God knows.” Well, that’s not a particularly helpful
answer for a 14 year old. It’s not helpful now. I don’t think it’ll be helpful
later. And I never liked being told what was right when I felt mostly capable
of figuring it out myself. That was the second reason. If there is no universal
truth, there is no universal law I’m being held against. And even if you claim
to have the real version of a
universal law, why do the guys down the street say you’re wrong? It’s not
universal if no one agrees. The logic still doesn’t fit inside my brain. If
there’s no real right, and no real wrong, and we’re all just doing the best we
know how, the world starts to make a little more sense. And that spawned into
the third, and biggest, reason I agree with Mr. Nietzsche: if there is no
universal truth and there is no universal law, then there is only human truth
and human law. Therefore, there is no universal source of good and no universal
source of evil, there are only human sources of good and evil. And since good
and evil are never really in black and white terms, not wholly, my shades of
grey faith held true. And therein lies the final and greatest tenet of “What I
Believe (Subject to Almost Constant Revision).”
The source of all the greatest
things in this world, for good and for ill, come from people.
It’s taken me years to articulate
that. I still think I’m doing it poorly. What I am roundaboutly getting to,
though, is where I got the tools to figure out what precisely it is I have
faith in, if not my father’s zombie carpenter. And once I built the foundation
of that faith, how I articulated it. And reinforced it with a community of like
minded thinkers.
The answer is this, and it reads
like a list of my favorite movies and books. I got it from Batman. And Lord of the Rings. And Cowboy Bebop. It comes from Shakespeare.
It comes from Anna Karenina, from
Star Wars, from Spider-Man, from the works of Isaac Asimov, from Charlie
Chaplin, from X-Men, from Blade Runner,
from Notes from Underground, from Teeth, from Tanya Davis’s poem “How to
Be Alone” and from the stand-up of Brian Regan and Louis CK. All those things
other people go looking for in church pews – a sense of belonging, belief in
something worth while and greater than myself, trust that people are mostly
good – I find in director commentaries, in behind the scene footage, in online
forums late at night.
And it all started with Batman in
2005.
You are right Cydney. Humans are the source of both good and evil. But where does the good and evil in us come from? When we truly touch the goodness in ourselves, isn't it bigger and better and wiser than we by ourselves are? The goodness in each of us is not just of our own making, but the making of every human that ever was and ever will be. It is a force bigger than the sum of its parts, yet it resides in all of us. It is not surprising that this goodness of humanity should be reflected in the arts and literature of our times, as well as in the times of Confucius, and Mohammed, and Christ. That religions are born from this fundamental and intrinsic goodness is only natural. That you can find the same lessons of goodness and evil in contemporary art and literature is more testament to the timelessness of this truth. But whether or not a person adheres to any particular doctrine does not excuse anybody from being accountable to the goodness that is inherent in all of us. That sounds like a Universal Truth to me. Wherever you find it, hold on tight. It can save you if you let it.
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